it's easy when you are a writer to let people see only what you want them to see. but, that is not being real. and i'm all about REAL.
my sweet friend emailed and i unloaded on her. i admitted things to myself, to her and to the Lord that were hard...she helped me see that i'm just plain tired and worn.
i am tired. of a lot.
listing everything here on the blog wouldn't do any good. you may feel sorry for me or realize that i have my own problems just like you do. i assure you, i do.
and it's not only our "problems" but situations around that affect us as well. it's ironic how decisions someone else can make affects not only them but their friends and family. and, we've had our share of them lately.
i'm not trying to get your sympathy...only to let you and myself know that it is okay to be real. to admit that you are just plain tired and worn. to admit that if not by the grace of God this life would sometimes be too much.
i know He is in control. i know He wants only good things for His children. i know that when we are in the valley is when we grow muscles for Him.
when i saw the last image of the music video above i felt a mixture of emotion. that is me, right now...right there.
He is here, holding me up...giving me strength and patience.
He. is. here.