Wednesday, August 3, 2011

it's personal.

continued from here.

what happens when you take something {or someone} out of it's environment...change it, mold it, prune it, stretch it and then place it back where it came from?

it's not going to fit like it did before. 

simply put, that's how i feel.  things are different.  our old ways don't feel right anymore and even some of our old friends aren't here. 

i can see God's plan unfolding, i know why we aren't in the mountains anymore.  God's timing really is always perfect.

but sometimes that doesn't make it any easier.  even trooper {4} says he wants to go back to the mountains.

the adjusting is really harder than i anticipated.  i can tell you this, we are doing much better having our own space.  our own little nest.  it's quite the little spot too!  {power was only out one day}

the Lord provided us a car which we bought for a great deal and somehow through the business we ended up with androids.  what are two mountain people supposed to do with fancy andriod phones? 

don't think i'm not grateful, i am.  we are way blessed. and don't let me fool you. i picked the phone out myself. 

i always go back to the same pondering:  how does a changed puzzle piece fit back into it's spot?

it can't.  and there's no use to try.

so, here i am.  accepting the fact that i'm a changed piece in God's big picture and i'm ready to be used...just trying to find my new spot!




27 comments:

  1. I'm there with you. Four years ago we uprooted our life, changed everything from career, finances, living situation, friends and so much more. Today I am grateful and thankful but seeing the big plan that He had for us was difficult then. Hang in there.

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  2. You are so right. A changed puzzle piece cannot fit in it's old spot. But, God didn't take you out and change you out, to put you back to where you always were. I'm praying for you all. We're going through adjustments right now too. :) Sometimes, it's hard to figure all the little things out, but we'll get there.

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  3. It's 'growing'..we out grow our old things and grow into new...and it doesn't stop...until we are with HIM!

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  4. That is an awesome point. I know how you feel. All in His timing. I know it is so hard to be patient, though. I will be praying for you.

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  5. The good thing is, when you're following God's will, you are in the right spot in His puzzle. God's timing has been amazing in all of this. I believe as we walk with Him, we often feel like misfits simply because God is fitting us all for our future eternal home, not this temporal one.

    Just two nights in those mountains gave us a glimpse of what a blessed place that was for your family, tell Trooper we understand.

    Hugs to you friend & the kiddos!

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  6. hoping life will be a little less puzzling soon for you then. :)

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  7. Life is an adventure and everyday we need to embrace it...it's hard sometimes...actually...it's hard a lot!

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  8. WoW I'm so with you! It's been hard to embrace the things that have come in my life, the "detours." I have learned that eventually it all makes sense. Eventually I will be able to look back and see why or what Father had planned all along. I pray that a treasure lay at the end of this trial for you.

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  9. and yet, as the saying goes, the more things change, the more they remain the same ;)

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  10. I'm a wife of a retired sailor. Moving was my middle name. Good luck in your new spot. I know you will find it.

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  11. I can't imagine how difficult it would be uproot. I pray God's richest blessings on you for your willingness to do it!

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  12. yep - i know this feeling and it makes one feel kinda homeless for a while until this new spot is found..

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  13. nice...mine is the opposite...wanting to move but being held tight and i continually need to remember there is a bigger picture...

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  14. A changed piece trying to find a new spot - great word picture.
    Though I haven't moved, I feel like I have changed/am changing, and I'm trying to see how God wants to use me...

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  15. Things can't get better or go God's way if you continually try to fit a changed piece into the old puzzle. It's so much better when you let God take this new piece (He's molded) and put it in his (perfect) puzzle. What a great attitude you have about your situation. It's easy to want to fight it, but so much better for us when we let it become what God wants it to be. Great post!

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  16. I love how you make me feel convicted sometimes! I admire how you handle all the challenges life throws at you. I wish I was more like that!

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  17. Love how you view things and your perspective!
    Wish I could adopt this thought too.....
    one day. It happens over time- right?
    :)

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  18. Oh I just want to hug you. It is always hard to change. You have had an enormous change. You will be fine your kids will be fine I just know it. Don't worry time will fix everything.B

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  19. This kind of change is so hard! I remember when we first moved from the south to the southwest. I fought hard against it and made everyone miserable. Submission to the LORD is much less painful, and now I can't imagine living anywhere else (ok, maybe a couple of places. :)) Praise God that even in the midst of the growing pains you are glorifying Him and looking to what He has planned for you!

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  20. Knowing you're in God's will certainly makes things easier, but that doesn't mean it makes it *easy*.
    Such changes, such uncertainties....not easy. I think the way you're dealing with it is amazing :)

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  21. We've been where we are for 8 years and I'm still a puzzle piece that doesn't fit. I've finally accepted that this is just one place I'm not going to and I just treasure the few people that I do fit with and wait for the next place to come along in a few years.

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  22. i love your heart, mountain mama. and the way you're so willing to seek his will for your life, even though it means leaving your comfort zone. praying you'll feel like you "fit" soon! e.

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  23. I've been reading....your story, ...this...you seem so transient and content to move around as the Lord leads. Maybe he is preparing your for the mission field somewhere!!! It's great to hear of people ready to pack up and move as they feel led!

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  24. PS...I move a lot and always seem to be trying to find my spot. And..I always find it.

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